"I wanted to live a pleasurable life as a sensual and sexually liberated woman. A Goddess was buried within me, resting under a decade of shame and fear of judgement. I knew that I had to shovel deeper to heal and clear the years of muck surrounding her. "
....my yoni egg journey started in November of 2016.
I had been studying all things divine feminine, practicing daily movement meditation ( releasing trapped emotions in my body through motion ) , and crystal healing for almost a year at this point; however; I wanted to live a pleasurable life as a sensual and sexually liberated woman. A Goddess was buried within me, resting under a decade of shame and fear of judgement. I knew that I had to shovel deeper to heal and clear the years of muck surrounding her.
I began searching high and low for all info on pussy. Yes, you heard right! I wanted to learn more about the power in between my legs. Like most women I know, growing up and discussing pussy with high regard was taboo.
"Like most women I know, growing up and discussing pussy with high regard was taboo."
Many women are told....yes, you have a ( insert whatever socially acceptable name for vagina here), it will bleed once a month and make babies. So, here's a tampon and a birth control pill.
All of this is true for some women, but there's so much more to pussy than that. Many like me, were never taught about the power, the pleasure or even the fact that our yoni holds everything....including trauma. I knew that in order to fully tap into my sensual feminine power, I would have to reprogram my thinking around my yoni and with love, embrace her. Within my search, most roads lead to yoni eggs.
My exact thoughts at the time were....
If I put this egg inside of me, how will I get this damn thing out?
Am I taking this crystal healing thing too far?
Is this even safe?
They ( whoever they are ) already think I'm weird, now people will really think I'm going crazy.
With 2017 right around the corner I decided, fuck it!
I got online and ordered two yoni eggs. A medium sized, drilled, rainbow fluorite jade as well as a black obsidian yoni egg. When they arrived, I opened the package, admired their beauty and placed them on my dresser.
A few days went by and I decided to incorporate the black obsidian yoni egg into my movement meditation practice. To prepare for insertion, I cleaned my yoni egg, lit sage and turned on my favorite rain sound meditation. I then nervously inserted the egg. My immediate thoughts after insertion were...hmmmm not so bad! I clinched my pussy tightly and laid face down on the floor.
Now, lets see if this works.
After 10 mins of lying in childlike pose, I shed tears of utter joy because I knew that the way I viewed my yoni had now changed. In that very moment, I didn't feel like some shame-filled, buried woman. I arose feeling Divine, beautiful, deserving of pleasure.
I was aware of my yoni magic and for the first time I felt free from past trauma, free from past lovers, free from all of the baggage I had been carrying in my sacred space.
Yes, crystals are that powerful! I was now finally on the path to fully and authentically embracing my sensuality and sexuality.
I began incorporating yoni eggs in my movement meditation practice consistently. I curated a practice that utilized sensual movement and the healing and awakening properties of the yoni eggs. Subtly stretching and flowing, all while squeezing my pussy muscles to hold onto my lovely yoni egg. It was exhilarating but, at this point...still my secret.
Without mention of my life altering yoni egg practices, I would actively share my sensual movement across social media and teach weekly dance classes. I felt like I was hiding a gem ( literally ). Out of fear of judgement, I couldn't imagine telling anyone about how I prepped my mind and body for class. To be honest, I started to feel quite selfish.
I was constantly asking myself...why not tell other women how you awakened your sexuality? Why not speak about how you began to embody sensuality and authentically express that?
"Some secrets are just too juicy and life altering not to tell."
After a year of working through fears, practicing, studying and learning all things yoni eggs, I shamelessly decided to share my secret with other women. I knew that it was time to utilize my personal experiences to offer my sisters a sacred space to learn about yoni eggs, heal and shamelessly live a life full of pleasure. Hello Sugar and Sage....
Confession :
My name is Desire`, I use yoni eggs, meditation, self-affirmations and sensual movement to tap into ALL that is within me!
I shamelessly live a life full of pleasure and I radiate divine feminine sensuality.
And so it is!
Have you tried yoni eggs? If so, I would love to hear your experience!